Dealer

Album: I'm Only F--king Myself (2025)
Charted: 27
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  • Since first turning heads with "Messy," Lola Young has made a habit of digging through the emotional attic and handing listeners whatever she finds, whether it's rage, regret, or the odd flash of gallows humor. Written alongside producers Solomonophonic and Will "Manuka" Brown - two longtime collaborators from her This Wasn't Meant For You Anyway era - "Dealer" is a jumpy, skittering tune that finds a heartbroken Young threatening to ghost her own life in favor of something – anything - less emotionally taxing.
  • I wanna get away, far from here
    Pack my bags and tell my dealer I'll miss him


    On the surface, the lyric is a wry nod to drug use, delivered with a shrug of dark humor. But underneath, it reflects the push-pull dynamic of addiction and escape. By saying she'll "miss him," Young humanizes the dealer - not just as a supplier of substances, but as a symbol of the comfort and routine she's trying to break away from. It suggests a deeper relationship with self-sabotage: even as she chooses to run, part of her still clings to what she knows, however destructive it may be.

    In short, she's not just leaving a person; she's leaving a version of herself. And that's always harder than it sounds.
  • "Dealer" was issued on July 25, 2025, as the third single from Lola Young's third album I'm Only F---ing Myself. Compared to her previous singles, it's the most openly vulnerable. "Not Like That Anymore" strikes a bittersweet balance, pairing emotional honesty with flickers of resilience and dry humor in the wake of a breakup. "One Thing," on the other hand, leans fully into confidence and sexual freedom, ditching heartbreak for irony and swagger. Together, they chart a journey through chaos, clarity, and contradiction, and with "Dealer," Young leans into the chaos with full-throttle honesty.
  • And if you're wondering, yes, the I'm Only F---ing Myself album title is meant to sting. As Young puts it, the record is "my ode to self-sabotage, my chance to claw myself back from the edge of defeat." "Dealer" represents a step further into her personal darkness and honesty, setting the tone for the album as a portrait of struggle, resilience, and self-discovery.

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