Close My Eyes

Album: Butterfly (1997)
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Songfacts®:

  • Carey wrote this song four years before she recorded the Butterfly album. She explained to VH1: "I had just done my first concert for a TV special in Schenectady, New York. I hadn't done anything other than Unplugged and little one-off shows with a piano player, so if was like my first real concert. I got off stage and went home to this really pretty farm in upstate New York. I was taking a bath and looking out the window - one of my favorite things. The moon was out and I was reflecting on my life. It was the first time I really sat and took it all in. It's almost like I watched my whole career go by. I took a breath and said, 'I've really accomplished something. What did it take to get here?' That started the concept for the song. I wrote the whole first verse and kept it in the back of my mind - I didn't even write it down for like four years. Fast forward to '97, and while writing Butterfly, I picked up where I left off after the first chorus."

    She added: "There are a lot of different things in the song that are personal and symbolic for me. A lot of my fans get very specific about that song because they apply it to their lives. I've read the letters and they really relate to that song. I don't want to say what my symbols are because it's about whatever they want to read into it. I like to keep some of those things for myself."
  • The song also reflects the changes Mariah was going through during the making of the album, from separating from her husband to fighting her label over her new urban-influenced sound. She told VH1 how her emotions surfaced on the album. "I guess I was putting my foot down and trying to be free. It's like when you've been confined for a long time. You're like a kid in school and then it's recess. Butterfly was almost like recess," she laughed. "I was still going through a confusing personal change. The line in 'Close My Eyes,' 'I feel like a child as I look at the moon, Maybe I grew up a little too soon,' encompasses the whole thing really."
  • Butterfly is Carey's sixth studio album and her fourth release to hit #1 in the US.

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  • Theresa from Murfreesboro, TnThe most personal track on Butterfly, the only song that means something to me.
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