My Suicide Note

Album: Becoming (2015)
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Songfacts®:

  • The intro to Stacy Barthe's debut album, Becoming, this song finds her talking candidly about a failed suicide attempt in 2010. She explained to Billboard magazine: "As the song so clearly portrays, it was pills. I was 380 pounds at the time, feeling hopeless and my career wasn't going the way I thought it would. I was running out of money, trying to pay my rent and still pursue my dream. Dealing with all that frustration on top of already low self-esteem sent me spiraling."

    "Suicide was always a recurring thought," Barthe continued. "I used to pretend to pass out to keep from going to school where I was always teased. But music was the one thing people liked me for."

Comments: 1

  • Michael from Winslow ArkansasI know how you feel I feel like I should just end my life because I have been told all my life that I am fat and ugly I think about it every day
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